New Beginnings

As I lie here on the floor of our family room, in front of my new laptop, my mind is swirling with numerous thoughts and feelings: feelings of excitement, sadness, melancholy; thoughts of what was, and will be... It's the night before a big change. Tomorrow I will embark on a 7-hour journey to my new home: Tulane University.

But pure happiness and fear encompass all.

I'm happy to begin this new chapter in my life - college is a big step up from living at home with your parents and going to high school.  I'm also so happy to experience new things: a new locale, new people, new intellectual roads to explore. However, no matter how hard I try to stay in this "happy place", the fear reaches its cold, skeletal fingers into my mind.

It's the fear of the unknown that clouds my mind.

Though I'm happy to travel the intellectual path set before me, I'm approaching my classes with a sense of apprehension. There are two subjects that are entirely brand new to me: Intro to Architecture and Design. Now, I try to think of it like this:  Intro to Architecture is simply a history class with a very specific topic at its core. Design is simply a REALLY long art class. At the same time, however, I keep telling myself: "Self, just what exactly are you getting into?" I tell myself, "I have no clue". "Architecture".....At this moment, that word seems more nebulous to me than ever before. Sometimes I feel like I done well to prepare myself for Studio; I've spent much of the summer researching different architects and their designs; I've continued to work on ideas through sketching and modeling; sometimes I feel like none of this is enough. Well, I guess I will see soon enough.

...................Time to wake up mom and dad so we can pack the car..............The time has come..for New Beginnings.....